://floating free
Purple haze lingering above me, glowworms of all shades and colors swirling around me. Impressions ransack my mind and negate contaminations of the past. Floating free I cannot surmise the direction I am heading for. Flickering uncertainity forms the chaos novel that surrounds me every fragment of a second.
"The tree's look different. He hasn't been to this part of the forrest before. Fresh air fills his lungs and makes him feel comfortable - even though he went astray days ago. He sets for the direction of the sun, as he seems to know that each path implies a similar level of insecurity. Pounding through wet moss, his feets feel as if they've been preparing since ages for the task ahead"
Light forms pictures and makes me wonder how I will feel after the next breath. My past unravels before me time after time again, with a rising confidence of having gone for the right decisions.
The impressions come and go. And every impression ignites my imagination, drop-dead gorgeous pictures appear. I question my reasons less and less.
One can't expect to disassemble the devastatements that have been building up for years, in weeks. One can't expect to immediately gain concrete feedback on large-scale actions. But while the purple haze flickers again, I feel a first herald of the implications of _the_ decisions.
It's 3am, I'm strolling through Münster and feel the lowering weight of my burden disappear for a second. I seem to float free. I seem to be free. A good path hopefully lies ahead - I'm heading for the sun.
Wish me luck.
://Emission
It's been a while. I admit it. Actually it's been the longest period of silence this, my little blog, had to endure so far. My life has been a macroscopic version of a roller coaster ride to hell and back ever since I wrote that last short article babbling about my beach party adventures. However, first the good news: Contrary to what Roger had already suspected, I'm not dead (yet), and second, I really managed to start studying now, just as I planned to do, and third, I had a very nice vacation to Mykonos (Greece) this summer. Examinig those three points again I can't but agree that those are the only good things which happened since that last blog-entry in June.
Not only the actual difference regarding the amount of good vs. bad news, but also the difficulty surrounding the explanation of the bad ones, just as well as their emotional background ( that which I'm not really willing to expose here ), lead to an awkward level of complexity, which naturally refuses to break down into smaller, simpler, (albeit still bad) pieces that could be explained to you, my dear friends. That means that I'm not really willing or able to explain everything that happened, and even those which I am to disclose won't be discussed to great lengths but merely "mentioned".
Apart from this, I still have a dim shimmer of hope leading to the tenuous assumption that I might be able to write a bit more in the future; And (which is even more important) that I'll start to read your blogs and livejournales again (because I not only dropped out of my life and my blog and whatnot, I also dropped out of the internet, keeping me from being updated about the current state of your lifes).
So, without further ado, here's my list of very-bad-things that happened during the past months (only those which I feal can be discussed here, there's a lot more :( ) (non-chronological order)
* I had a serious illnes which resulted in my ears not working anymore and was close to a 'stroke of paralysis' (I'm mostly better now, tho)
* Our dog, Corrie, died due to rat poison :(
* A rather big transition phase (which started about 1.5 months ago and will continue until January) keeps me from having almost any free time at all; I'm always busy, always on the run, and way too nervous. If I don't manage to calm down here, the above-mentioned Illness might very well come back
* I lost quite some money due to a stupid error
That's it; As mentioned above, I'm kinda on track, currently moving back into what some people would refer to as 'normality', that's why I have high expectations for 2007. There's a ton of other (lets call them 'neutral' news right now) things which I'd like to adress here, before I leave for study-preparations: I moved to Münster, a nice, quaint (god I love that word) town not too far from here; I got that MacBook Pro I sought after (DE); Meaning I switched from a 4-Computer workflow to a 1-Computer one. It feels so much better. I managed to go to some extraordinary good parties in between, met a lot of interesting people and generally feel well thinking about my social life (although I know that I desperately need to call some of my closer friends again because they, just like Roger, will suspect death otherwise - and I don't want them condolence cards to arrive right now ;) ) I've read a crazy ton of books this year (I kinda just realized that last week when I cleaned my shelf) All those books I read on the airplanes to Stuttgart as well as what I read while I had to stay in the hospital really adds up to some crazy number.
Ok, I hope that the above text was somehow understandable; My current lack of english communication (no icq, no blog, no aim, no phone calls, the friends from argentina went back home till next year) reveal via this blog entry that my english tongue has been degenerated down to a new level, but I hope that future blog posts (as well as an added emphasis on icq communication) will help me train it again, so that those future postings might be a tad more understandable and or readable.
I'm back - still choking - but alive; and the wet clothes are beginning to dry.
Thanks for reading, Benedikt
://Downloads/Tracks offline
The Sarbatka downloads are currently offline, due to the fact that I forgot to pay the monthly bill for my 2. server. I'm sorry for this. I'll repair it right when I'm back from my upcoming vacation (leaving in about 9 hours).
://New Sarbatka Track.. Dialima Tu Kafe
This is my first videogame remix after 3 years ob absence from video
game remixing (for the uninformed readers: yeah there is such a thing
as a videogame music remix community), and I'm really happy with the
outcome. I might even continue this path and do some more videogame
remixes again in the future. Now a blurb of text about this track:
This is my submission to JoeCams excellent Earthbound remix project "Bound Together". There are 32 submissions from some of the best remixers out there, the whole thing rocks darn hard. You should really go and download the others too.
This remix builds upon the Coffee Break theme and thus concentrates on something which is a vital part of my life. Coffee.
Most of this track was made during my 14 day vacation on the greek
island Mykonos. The relaxing atmosphere of sunny beaches caught on to
this track, too - I think. The title means 'Coffee Break' in greek. I
hope you'll enjoy it. The guitar parts were played by the famous Frank van't Ende (Diggi Dis).
You can download the track here
I'd be happy about some comments, criticism and stuff.
://Yeps, things are moving
Finally. There'll be new tracks on here. I already finished two tracks which have yet to appear, one of them a real bomb. Sarbatka is back.
://New Sarbatka Track Release: A Faint Smile (!)
Most of you probably didn't believe in it anymore, here it is, a new track release on Sarbatka (!) after almost two years a pretty surprising - if not astonishing - event.
Especially since it's not the long-mentioned "Just a friend", that one is still only avaible on the Joe Cam Hits & Misses CD.
I'm going to remix it again before I'll release it here, I like it alot
but there's still room for improvement and I wanna build on that.
Now back to the current release, "a faint smile". This is nothing too
special, it's more a back to the roots; Most of the older Sarbatka
tracks were build in 2-3 days while for example Just a friend took 2-3
weeks. This is - of course - a quality indication which "a faint smile"
lacks, but anyhow I wanted to move from quality over quantity to
quantity over quality, if only to provide some sort of justification
for the sheer existance of this site.
What is to be expected now? I don't know, I'm still quite busy, but my
current war against procrastination seems to fruit, not only because I
released this track, but also due to the relaunch of www.terhech.de
and other things to come. So it could be that I, although I have little
spare time left, will be able to release more tracks in the future,
maybe even the one or other game remix again.
Apart from that there's still "Just a friend" on the horizon, and while you're waiting for it to appear here, I still strongly advise you to buy it now because the album rocks and it's a good bargain.
://Good News, Everyone
I admit that I've been paying little energy on music over the recent
months. And especialy Sarbatka, my small but already senior
side-projekt had to suffer through this.
However, great news everyone:
Not only did I find some time to create small music snippets which I
labeled Track-A-Day and which I am going to add to this site soon, I
also managed to bind Sarbatka to my blog so I'll no be able to write a bit more about my musical endeavours on here.
I'm a bit busy right now as I'm still at work, but I'll try to add some nice things over the coming days.
://FINALLY A NEW TRACK!
Yeah as I promised. There's a new sarbatka track. Finally. After almost
18 months of fucking reallive. It's only avaible on CD though.
The CD comes from Joe Cam, my fellow featured vocal Artist. And you better head over to his site now and buy that damned CD because Joe rocks,
AND because there's even more sarbatka goodness on that CD:
An 'A Gush Of Exasperation' Remix featuring Ailsean's guitar goodness.
AND
Another totally great track from Disposer feat. some drum stuff from me.
Not to mention all those great tracks from other godlike artists like Matt Pollard, Dale North, Crazy Crakaz, Haroon Piracha, bLiNd, Joshua Morse, po!, Mazedude, and many more.
AND NOW GO FOR IT!
Joe rocks.ez
://RELAUNCH
There we go.
Two years after the initial Alpha release, Sarbatka V3 is given birth to.
I've had a lot of different things which I needed to adress before I could continue to follow the path I want to go with Sarbatka.
There was hardly any musical output during the last 15 months. I'll be able to make more music now that V3 is online, due to the fact that I adressed many real-life problems.
I've uploaded many unreleased tracks, and they're all avaible in the release-archive now!
There's some hot stuff already on the way, there will even be more stuff in future, like B-Side releases, hot vagina's, and stuff like that.
Give Head Scotty, we're about to start - and this time we're on fire.